past.. present.. future..

in d past..
i was kinda naive.. thinking that everyone is the good person in this world.. thinking that life will be better when tomorrow.. thinkng that my life is colourful and wonderful.. everyday pass with colours.. thinking that if i treat ppl good.. ppl treat me didnt treat me well also nvm.. im finding for my trueself.. sometimes.. i be fake infront of ppls.. sometimes.. ppls cant accept my true self.. i wonder.. shd i be fake or true...??

in d present..
i learned to be fake in front of certain ppl.. i learn to dealing with different kinds of ppl.. but still... i think dat everyone is good in this world.. even though i hate d ppl very much.. mayb u will say dat was really fake.. but if u think another way.. u will found dat u r d one who being stubborn all d time n yet theres no ppl care how stubborn u r.. haha.. dats is really funny.. is all bout communication problem.. and also characteristic problem.. mix with those ppl who have diff characteristic.. discover the good side of those ppl.. ignore d bad side of d ppl.. i wonder will this way works out...?? neh.. hu cares... i jz wanna live my own life n enjoy the every moment in my life~ ^^

in the future..
no matter how hard or how easy my future will be.. i still wanna paint my life.. with colours.. every moment with the colours i desire.. making myself busy will be a good way i think.. coz lik dat my brain will coz didnt function n getting older.. haha.. hu cares first la.. live the fullest.. dats alli wan.. dats all i hope.. no matter how i goin to be.. im jz a life painter who trying to paint my life well~ is jz me.. d baka karman.. XD

Gettin... F A T ! ! !

gosh.. i wonder wat happen to me recently.. i jz lik to keep on eating.. eating.. n eating...

hmm.. well... jz lik non-stop eating.. biscuit, snacks, milk, soup, milo.... iisshhhh!! lik dat i mah cham liao lo?? keep on eating till lik a pail.. 38,38,38... (o.O) dats a truely nitemare... dammit!!

oh god~ i nid to set up a plan to make my life more better.. if not i sure will obesity.. haha.. lik dat will sounds a terrible matter for me~ so...

KARMAN IS ON DIET NOW~!!!!! LOLS~

In the coming X'mas

hohoho~ Merry X'Mas~~

chotto~!!!

(o.O) simi oo??

weiiii~!! u 4gt 'go dong' lerrrr~!!! =.=lll u r chinese or not ooo?? lolsss...

...

ps to all.. im trying to SS here.. Syok Sendiri.. nth to do nia.. =.= too wu liao liao.. wakakaa~

anyway.. i really lookin forward for X'Mas.. coz im goin out shopping with housemate dat time.. not only shopping oo.. sing K also.. if can ooo.. can go Gasoline eat dinner~ wooohooo~~ too nice to think bout dat.. hahhaaaaaa~~~!!!

hm.. how bout X'Mas present?? erm.. i think bout dat b4 d.. n wanna list a lots of ppl to gv.. but gt sum1 make me dunno wat shd i gv ler.. coz i dunno wat he likes.. hais.. wat a failure.. >.<

cham lo.. i really no idea bout dat.. sobb~ sobb~~ hu~ can~ help~ me~~~~~?? T_T

nvm la.. dun wan to think first.. haha.. dat time oni see how lu.. ^_^v

Better In Time - Leona Lewis

a song that remind me bout my memories.. no matter is sweet or bitter.. is all in it..
thx 4 ash jie to intro me this song.. it do suit me.. i lik it very much..

lyric:

"Better In Time"

It's been the longest winter without you
I didn't know where to turn to
See somehow I can't forget you
After all that we've been through

Going coming thought I heard a knock
Who's there no one
Thinking that I deserve it
Now I realize that I really didn't know
If you didn't notice you mean everything
Quickly I'm learning to love again
All I know is I'm gonna be OK

[Chorus:]
Thought I couldn't live without you
It's gonna hurt when it heals too
It'll all get better in time
And even though I really love you
I'm gonna smile cause I deserve to
It'll all get better in time

I couldn't turn on the TV
Without something there to remind me
Was it all that easy
To just put aside your feelings

If I'm dreaming don't wanna laugh
Hurt my feelings but that's the path
I believe in
And I know that time will heal it
If you didn't notice boy you meant everything
Quickly I'm learning to love again
All I know is I'm gonna be OK

[Chorus:]
Thought I couldn't live without you
It's gonna hurt when it heals too
It'll all get better in time
And even though I really love you
I'm gonna smile cause I deserve to
It'll all get better in time

Since there's no more you and me
It's time I let you go
So I can be free
And live my life how it should be
No matter how hard it is I'll be fine without you
Yes I will

[Chorus: X2]
Thought I couldn't live without you
It's gonna hurt when it heals too
It'll all get better in time
And even though I really love you
I'm gonna smile cause I deserve to
It'll all get better in time

guys n galz.. go search 4 this song.. i hope u all can enjoy it..

Truth or Dare

i lik this game very much.. coz i feel dat i can discover another side of mine whenever i being truth or dare..

truth.. sometimes.. we wont notice the things around us.. but others will.. in this game.. they will ask out something that shd be think carefully.. eg/ ur emotion n ur thoughts..

dare.. do the things that u will never do in your whole life.. train urself to be brave to speak out n speak up~ haha.. jz doin crazy things as ur memories.. a wonderful n funny memories that u will remember till the end of ur life.. dats how i think bout d daring things~

we wont know wat will happen on the next day.. mayb ur end of ur life is on the next day? hour? min? sec?

so.. treasure everything that u have.. so that u wont regret on that day~

Sudden sick.. food poisoning...??

friday,evening

after back from carrefore, i feel headache and very tired.. after eating a panadol.. then i went to slp liao..

bout 7pm sth.. i woke up by YS's call.. coz he want to borrow toilet.. i jump up from my bed n feel very dizzy.. then i jz ignore it.. when i walk to stairs.. i feel that d stairs are 'walking'.. i cant see my steps clearly.. however.. i jz keep 1 of my eyes closed and walk down.. phew~ safe!! didnt roll down from stairs.. haha..

then i walk to d gate to open d lock.. my sight still cant see clearly.. head still pain.. and feel dizzy.. finally YS came.. after i saw him walk in.. he talk to me something.. but i cant hear clearly.. i feel lik wan to faint ady.. then i walk back to upstairs with an uneasy, n dizzy feeling..

my roomate, cloudy, she saw me n shocked!! coz my face was pale.. i told her bout my fren is downstairs thn i rush inside toilet and have diherrea.. i feel my head was knocking by hundreds of hammer and feel lik wanna vommit.. lucky.. i able to stop myself from vommiting.. haha
cloudy n my housemate are shocked.. coz when evening.. im still ok.. when midnight.. another suprise.. i get high fever without notice.. cloudy notice it.. when she put a wet towel on my forehead.. only i know that im having high fever.. lols..

all the night.. i cant slp well.. keep on waking up.. till 6 something only can fall asleep.. but when 7 sth.. munz called me.. coz i suppose to go for acc lec on 8am.. i tell her i skip class.. coz sick liao.. haha.. then i wake up and hav bath.. after bath.. fever again.. lols.. lucky d fever reduce when cloudy back.. if not i sure wil get scold.. >.<

till now.. im bac to seremban ady.. lucky no fever ady.. but.. get flu liao... swt.. =.= dunno when only i can get well from these sick thinggy.. ROAR!!

The Moment - Kenny G

i wonder before.. is there anything that last forever??
for me.. i think.. memories do last forever.. haha

the moment i know you.. im glad.. i know a new fren and i can get along with you..

the moment we chat 2gether.. i know.. you are a very nice fren that willing to listen to me and give me opinion..

the moment we meet.. i know.. i cant judge a person by conversation and i have to look further in you..

the moment u look at me.. i know.. im hiding my eyes from you.. cause i not dare to look into your eyes.. though is kinda not respect you..

there is lots of the moment in my life.. i cant list it all out.. but i know that those moments are my treasure.. i will never forget bout that.. ^^

i cried..

for the first time.. i cried.. i wonder why i would cry..
i also dunno.. i ask my heart.. my heart replies me.. u like him..
haha.. my brain denied that.. looks like my mind n soul doesnt co-operate well..

at first.. i jz sobbing.. but. after u called up me.. my tears rolled down..
no matter how i rub it off with tissue.. i still cant stop them from rolling down..

i went to bath after dat.. in the toilet.. i cant stop myself from keep on crying..
the tears mixed with the water.. i cant differentiate dat..
i only can say to myself.. i didnt cry at all.. dats jz tap water from the shower..
but my reddish eyes had tell the truth......

Suprised from u.. haha~ (o.O)

u told me that.. u do view my blog.. im so suprised.. really suprise..
i think i kinda have mixed feelings..
first of all.. of coz.. suprise..
coz i never xpect u will look at it.. haha.. =x

2nd.. im happy.. coz u do read wat i write there..

3rd.. a bit sad.. haha.. im thinking.. 'y u dun wan to ask me urself ler??'
of coz.. happy is more thn d little sad thinggy~ ^^

i guess u r rite.. girls r complicated homo sapiens.. lols..
n.. im one of them.. =.=
dont u think so??