im getting tired of this.. really tired.. looking at the same ppl.. facing the same attitude.. hearing the same thing bout the same person.. is there any changes??
I WAN SOME CHANGES!!
i guess i do start to change myself a bit..
hmm.. walk bac frm col.. trying to enjoy the time whn i walk back.. but i noe.. there will be no one waiting for mi at home.. no one will say "welcome back".. the only thing that wait for me is my dad d laptop.. quietly lying on my table.. waiting me to switch on it......
i cried.. few time whn i walk back from col.. walking alone on the street.. listening to my old mp3.. the same songs played over n over.....
whn i reached home.. i try to make myself as busy as possible.. mayb someone will say.. 'why dun u jz hang out wit frenz?' haha.. will there any difference...?? whn i reach home.. i still alone.. n im afraid dat i will get used to depends on frenz....
im not a cry baby.. but my tears will automatically flow out.. i guess i over control my feelings in front of ppl.. i dun wan my housemate to worry me.. i dun wan my frenz to worry me either.. all i can do is enjoy the time whn i was with them.. hah~ sure i do enjoy that..
recently.. my old injury come bac.. stupid right leg.. sigh~ i wonder whn oni i recover again from the dam injury.. i guess my leg gonna wrapped lik an elephant leg again.. with all those chinese herbs smell.. faint down.. dat dun bother mi till whn i nid to bath.. i only can laugh at myself with the stupid look.....
whn.. whn oni i can fly up to the sky...?? haha.. i dun mean dat i really wanna fly in d sky.. jz.. a description.. or all i can say this sentance jz pop out of my mind.. haha.. an ordinary person said nonsence d word.. wat an idiot....
btw.. loong.. thanks for the purple crystal that u gave me last time.. the memories make me smiles.. n.. tell u what.. that crystal is my guradian crystal now.. i guess u wun xpect dat ba.. even though u said dat u gave mi is to protect me.. haha.. i never change anything on d crystal.. even the necklace.. jz.. it cracked.. dun ask mi the reason.. i feel bad to tell u bout dat.. dun ask dun ask.. hehe.. i guess is too late tell tell u.. even though i jz told u on ur bday.. n.. i still lik last time.. can sense ur msg whn it almost arrive.. haha.. mayb jz ngam ngam i sense dao ba.. haha...
sumore.. munz n bao bei said i used to stare at 1 point wit a mood look.. hmm.. now i nid to xplain here.. i jz thinking wat i shd do.. sumtimes thinking sth till forgetting others liao ma.. not purposly d la.. if u wanna noe wat i thinking... xplore my brain ba.. haha.. anyway.. i will do dat less d la.. dun worry..
hmm.. half hour more to go to wake up sum1.. haha.. i guess i better stop here.. n continue my tutorial question first.. if cant finish thn cham liao loo......
nites.. everyone.. ~.~
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