a letter.. from myself to another me...

dear karman,

girl.. u have being nuts in your whole life.. carrying those bad memories in your mind n make urself tired n feel bad.. u r such a dumb.. A MEMORY IS A MEMORY!! dats a past n u shdnt live in your past.. y u carry those silly memoriess n make urself suffer?? fake smiling in front of ppl, swallowing those tears bac into your stomach.. mayb n perhaps, u have d real smile sumtimes.. but u let ur bad memories make d smile fade away..

R U STUPID??
R U IDIOT??
R U DUMMY??

think those bad memorise wun help u to grow up n become more mature.. dat only will make u live in ur old life, live in ur memories!!

U R NOT DAT OLD TO LIVE IN UR MEMORIES, ARENT U?? U GOIN TO HAVE UR 19TH BIRTHDAY THIS YEAR N GOIN TO BE 21 IN 2 MORE YEARS.. CANT U BE MORE MATURED?? CANT U MAKE UR FAMILY LESS WORRY BOUT U?? CANT U MAKE D PPL FEEL EASY WITH U?? CANT U??!!

d clock wun stop for anyone.. time is ticking away.. d earth stil moving.. every second goes by cant come back.. a human shd live for future but not d past.. cant u understand those theory..?? if u can say it.. thn u shd mean it....

girl.. is time to give up for those bad memories.. give up dsnt mean to forget it all.. but jz let it go.. let d bad memories fade away as d time passes..

i noe, dat wound wun recover quickly.. i noe, sumtimes u wil rmb bac those memoreis again.. i noe, even d wound recovered, it might have a scar there.. jz let it be.. dats a scar that proves u had success.. success to overcome those bad memories..

gambate.. dun let those ppl around u to worry bout u.. show ur brightest smile from d bottom of ur heart.. i know u can do dat.. i noe u can.. jz believe in urself.. theres no perfect ppl in this world.. jz be the best u could.. i would support u wit my heart..

Even when it seems that nothing can go right
and you want to just give up,
if you close your eyes,
you can see the world from your heart.

In this world when life can be so tough
You must be strong
Just believe in yourself and don't you fear
So open up your mind and close your eyes
Take another look from the other side

Even on a lonely night, when you wander afraid,
you may be alone now, but
your feet can take you however far you want to go, so

Just hold on tight, because if you close your eyes,
look inside yourself, there's a shining light there.
Yes, I want you to believe in everything.
You can take another look from the other side

Just hold on tight, even if your heart is breaking.
Reach into your soul, even if you can't see tomorrow.
Yes, if you have the strength to live,
You can take another look from the other side,
until you find all that is love...

I wish for you to have the strength
to make it through this world,
so open up your mind,
and you'll be able to see...

Just remember you are not alone
So don't you fear
Even though you're miles away
I'm by your side
So open up your mind and close your eyes
I'll be there for you no matter where you are

The stars may live for a long time, but that doesn't mean
that the same days will repeat over and over forever.
None can see into tomorrow.

Just hold on tight, because if you close your eyes,
look inside yourself, you'll feel a heartbeat.
Yes, I want you to believe in the future.
You can take another look from the other side.

Just hold on tight, even if your heart is breaking.
Reach into your soul, even if you can't see tomorrow.
Yes, there's another world out there.
You can take another look from the other side,
and you'll be able to find all that is love...

is time to change urself.. go for it......

love,
ka-man